My original thought for today's post was what works well for your blog. Then after this past weekend's discussion I drafted up an entire post about my current discontent with blogging. The act of writing the post was very cathartic, but I felt that if I published my thoughts I would be perpetuating not only my discontent, but the discontent of others as well. Ultimately, it doesn't matter what my opinions are. Well, they matter to me, of course, but I am not going to use my blog and other people's blogs to voice those opinions anymore. I apologize if anything I have said has offended anyone. Truly, it was not my intention. There has been so much contention lately and frankly, I don't want to be apart of it. It makes me anxious and sad and fretful and worrisome and I don't need that negativity to be part of my life.
A small and short note on last Sunday's post. My conversation on Sunday was not meant to stir the pot and tick people off. I don't twitter or subscribe to every book blog, so I was not privy to all of the current discussions on ARCs other than the discussion on Bethany and Trish's blogs about negative reviews. If I had known there were so many, I would have read through those comments instead of starting my own discussion (regular readers will know that I don't try to start controversial topics here). I am not anti-ARC or against bloggers who accept ARCs/review copies. How silly would that be? I was personally just curious how people felt--to be honest because my own review of a book I received for a blog tour wasn't as successful as my other posts. I think for the most part the commenters did a good job of expressing how they felt rather than attacking other people, although we all do have our own opinions. End note. :)
Over the past few months I thought about giving up blogging for oooh about .5 seconds. Then I thought much more seriously about taking a blogging break. I've decided that neither are fair to me. I do blog for myself. Even before blogging I kept a journal of the books I've read. Even if I stopped blogging, I would still write my thoughts down. The added bonus is that I sometimes get to enter into discussions about what you thought as well. And then there is the double bonus of learning about new books and genres. And then the triple bonus of meeting all of you. I have been blessed Blessed to have met such wonderful people who share my passion. Without you I'd be rather lonely in my little book world. You've enriched my reading life and I can't thank you enough.
So, I'm taking a really really deep cleansing breath and I'm getting back to what I love: books. And the people. Keeping it simple and not worrying so much about things that in the grand scheme of things just don't matter. I have always loved that bloggers have been so respectful and accepting and I am going to do my part to uphold that. There has been too much hurt being passed around lately, and I think we could all do better to remember that bloggers are real people with real feelings. I don't mean to lecture, but I think it is easy to forget that everyone is his/her own person.
The books. What am I reading now? A few weeks ago I posted about books that intimidate me. Because I got a little ahead during the read-a-thon, I am taking the time to face my intimidation and fears and slowly read Middlemarch. My copy is 840 pages long and I'm not going to lie and tell you that I understand everything that is going on! Sometimes I feel like Ms. Eliot is too smart for me, but I'm not giving up. But I'm over a fourth of the way through and mostly enjoying my slow journey.
Next up is Oscar Wao for my face-to-face book club (I'll have to take a break from Middlemarch to read it). I chose the book and am really excited about it, but also a little nervous because just recently I found out that there is a lot of language and sexual content? For just me that would be fine as long as it isn't gratuitous, but it makes me apprehensive to have picked a book that others might find offensive (this is a work book club). I know many of you have read it and really liked it--any words of reassurance?
I still have a few reviews that I need to get out--Fun Home and Beedle the Bard--from the read-a-thon. The first I want to re-read again because I loved it so much and feel it deserves a closer reading. The second needs a re-read because at 5:00 in the morning, my eyes were really just glazing over the words. Yup, no retention there! Having those reviews in my back pocket makes me feel a little bit better about taking several weeks on Middlemarch. But I will conquer! Maybe East of Eden after that since so many of you chastised me for being intimdated of it! :)
Next week's Sunday Salon? If I can get my act together, my topic will be influence. I'm really excited but it will take some time to get everything together.
I hope everyone has a really wonderful week. I'm actually in Salt Lake right now (well, I will be...I'm writing this post on Thursday!!) spending time with my grandparents. I'll be behind in bloghopping for at least a few days, but I'll be around.